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 Nico is getting so big. He's starting to look more like a toddler, and it makes me kind of sad. He's growing in his canines right now, so he's pretty grumpy. He babbles at me while pointing at his mouth.
There is one concern I have...

He's 18 months. He's still not very good at walking. He can stand and toddle for a few steps, but more often than not, he falls and gives up. I'm not doing something right here. I wonder if I need to spend more time with him? Is there anything I can do to help him catch up? I mean, I know some kids are late bloomers....but people are looking at him strange when he's in his stroller.

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 It's only been a week since I arrived back here in Japan, but it feels like I never left. Nico seems to like all the lights in Akihabara, but I worry what it will do for his development. I've decided to get a job with a music studio, and that means Nico is stuck in daycare. Which I guess isn't so bad. It means he gets to meet other kids. The one I chose seems pretty top-notch, too. Other than that, I guess getting back in touch with people I knew here would be okay.
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Hey...so, before we go on this trip, I have to tell you guys something. Kenya, Senri, I'll talk to you guys once I get home. I don't know when I'll tell the rest of you.
zenzaip: (Default)
Hey, Kin, happy birthday. I sent your gift a couple of days ago, so I hope you got it.

(ooc: He sent him a new racket and some new drawing supplies.)
zenzaip: (pissed)
Did I enter some bizarro land without anyone telling me? I mean, I'm cool if Kenya is tired every now and then, but that hornball doesn't go a whole week without at least a hand job. He doesn't have the guts to cheat, and if he did, he would never see Tia again. But he's fucking hiding something and it's pissing me off. If something is happening at work, why won't you just tell us, Kenya? Why am I resorting to this fucking post because you seem to only say at most five words to me every day? Can't you see that you're fucking messing with Senri's already fragile head? If you don't want to have sex, what the fuck ever, but the least you could do is treat us like your boyfriends. I'm going to be staying in Senri's room until you can figure this the fuck out.

...And because I'm not in the mood to be a hypocrite, there is something I need to discuss with you and Senri. Nothing current, but a skeleton in my closet that I need to let out. Because I love my boyfriends and want them to know everything because I'm a decent person.

To Kenya

Mar. 17th, 2015 04:48 pm
zenzaip: (kenya)
Back in middle school, I had a crush on this guy. He was a complete doofus, and I couldn't help but tease the hell out of him and try to embarrass him. I guess I was a bully like that. I often thought about the doofus, even as the years passed. Somehow, that doofus grew into a doctor, a good man, and one of the best boyfriends a guy could have. Happy birthday, Kenya. I hope you'll like your gift tonight.
zenzaip: (smile?)
I've been trying to get Tia to call me Hikaru. But today, she surprised me. I don't know why she decided to start calling me this....but she called me Daddy! And I know it wasn't a fluke, because afterward she said "Daddy, up!" She's learning so fast...

I'm a proud dad. And I'll fight anyone who thinks I'm being sappy about it.
zenzaip: (smile?)
I'm sorry I'm such a wimp sometimes, but I just get overwhelmed. I never used to feel so vividly before you two came along. The world was just a bunch of noise and confusion that I tuned out the best I could. But I don't want to do that anymore. Especially today. Today is the best Valentine's Day ever. Thank you, Senri. Your gift is better than anything money can buy. And I just want you both to know that I am the happiest I have ever been, because of you. Kenya, you keep me on my toes, trying new things instead of living in a box. Senri, you bring about a calm in my that I never knew I needed until you came along. And together with the two of you, we have the best family ever. Tia will never feel unloved with the three of us as her Dads.

I love you both. Happy Valentine's Day.
zenzaip: (huh?)
"To my dearest Zenzaip,

I miss you, my darling. It's been so long since you've posted anything. Is everything alright? Did something happen? Please tell me that your extra baggage is gone. You know what I mean. That lover of yours and that baby. I can forgive you for them, so long as you never mention them again. Please, my darling, it's been too long. I need to see your words and hear your songs. Please post something. I wish I knew your real name, so that I could come to your side.

Signed, Plumblossom23"


I don't know whether this is a joke, or if I should be sleeping with one eye open. I'm kinda freaked the fuck out over this.
zenzaip: (huh?)
Man, this kid is getting big. Someone tell her to stop growing, okay? She's cruising now. She isn't out right walking, but she is holding onto furniture and moving upright. She's too smart for her own good. Now if I could just get her calling me something more appropriate than "dada". Though right now, everyone is "Dada". It's kind of cute I guess. She cries less at night now, and is getting a little independent. Kids really do grow up too fast.
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Guess who's teething?

I forgot how awful this part is. Not for me. I can handle her crying and being cranky. But I feel so bad for her. She's so miserable right now unless she has a nice, cold teething ring. Kenya, we need to buy 20 of them, so she's never without, okay? Cool, knew I could count on you.
zenzaip: (thoughtful)
Just Senri being awake should make me happy...but the lost look in his eyes terrifies me. He knows me...and yet, he doesn't. I feel like I'm talking to an old friend I haven't seen in years. I have to stop myself from crawling into his arms. I still tell him I love him, and he gets the weird look on his face. It's hard...almost too hard, and yet I keep going back in hopes he'll say "Surprise, it was a joke!"

...I'm the only joke here.
zenzaip: (sob)
Senri's heart stopped. It fucking stopped. They saved him, but that doesn't change the fact that for a moment, he fucking died. I can't do this anymore...I can't...I can't keep believing everything will be okay because it fucking won't be.
zenzaip: (thoughtful)
It's weird how quickly I've adapted to coming to the hospital, sitting with Senri, taking care of Tia, and making sure Kenya's okay (he is, for the most part). It's becoming clockwork. I try to talk to Senri, to sing to him, because I heard people in comas can still hear, sometimes. I hope my voice is reaching him. I want to thank everyone for their kind words, thoughts, and offers. I won't refuse those offers, because now is not the time to be hard-headed. The one thing I won't ask people to do is take care of Tia. I've got that. I feel better taking care of her. But having people to talk to is always good.
zenzaip: (sob)
This isn't fucking fair. Why did this have to happen? Why Senri? He didn't fucking deserve this! I'm doing my best to stay calm. Kenya is panicked enough for the both of us. Still...it's hard.I know I shouldn't hold everything in, but I can't be upset when I'm trying to take care of Kenya...
zenzaip: (smile?)
I've been hit by a bout of inspiration, and I've been writing, composing, and plotting non-stop. Okay, not non-stop. I have a family, after all. But I think I've finally found the spark I need for a new series. Not that I'm abandoning Jigoku. In fact, I just made a song about Usagi-Sensei:

www.wowsuchlink.manyreals.sofake.com/usagiMV

Anyway, Comic-Con looked like a blast. Maybe next year I'll be able to go.
zenzaip: (smile?)
I really wasn't expecting a party. But it was nice seeing everyone, and my gifts were really nice. This has been a year of ups and downs, but I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. Thank you all, for sticking with me.
zenzaip: (Working)
Holy fuck, it's already the day before my birthday. This year has been...I don't really have words for it.

Um...what?

Jul. 2nd, 2014 05:24 pm
zenzaip: (embarrassed)
Apparently, I was spotted with my "Secret Love Child" while I was out taking Tia to buy new clothes. One, she looks nothing like me, and two, so what? Even if she was my kid, it's none of your damn business. Just because I'm out with a baby somewhere doesn't mean there is a scandal behind it. And even if there was, it's no one's business. I'm not even that fucking famous, go bother some other asshole.
zenzaip: (embarrassed)
I meant to wash all of the socks with my new red shirt. Really. We all need more pink in our lives. We need to show Tia that colors have no gender. I also totally meant to freeze those onions. They make everything in the freezer taste better.

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