Nico is getting so big. He's starting to look more like a toddler, and it makes me kind of sad. He's growing in his canines right now, so he's pretty grumpy. He babbles at me while pointing at his mouth.
There is one concern I have...

He's 18 months. He's still not very good at walking. He can stand and toddle for a few steps, but more often than not, he falls and gives up. I'm not doing something right here. I wonder if I need to spend more time with him? Is there anything I can do to help him catch up? I mean, I know some kids are late bloomers....but people are looking at him strange when he's in his stroller.

Hey...so, before we go on this trip, I have to tell you guys something. Kenya, Senri, I'll talk to you guys once I get home. I don't know when I'll tell the rest of you.

Did I enter some bizarro land without anyone telling me? I mean, I'm cool if Kenya is tired every now and then, but that hornball doesn't go a whole week without at least a hand job. He doesn't have the guts to cheat, and if he did, he would never see Tia again. But he's fucking hiding something and it's pissing me off. If something is happening at work, why won't you just tell us, Kenya? Why am I resorting to this fucking post because you seem to only say at most five words to me every day? Can't you see that you're fucking messing with Senri's already fragile head? If you don't want to have sex, what the fuck ever, but the least you could do is treat us like your boyfriends. I'm going to be staying in Senri's room until you can figure this the fuck out.

...And because I'm not in the mood to be a hypocrite, there is something I need to discuss with you and Senri. Nothing current, but a skeleton in my closet that I need to let out. Because I love my boyfriends and want them to know everything because I'm a decent person.

I've been trying to get Tia to call me Hikaru. But today, she surprised me. I don't know why she decided to start calling me this....but she called me Daddy! And I know it wasn't a fluke, because afterward she said "Daddy, up!" She's learning so fast...

I'm a proud dad. And I'll fight anyone who thinks I'm being sappy about it.

"To my dearest Zenzaip,

I miss you, my darling. It's been so long since you've posted anything. Is everything alright? Did something happen? Please tell me that your extra baggage is gone. You know what I mean. That lover of yours and that baby. I can forgive you for them, so long as you never mention them again. Please, my darling, it's been too long. I need to see your words and hear your songs. Please post something. I wish I knew your real name, so that I could come to your side.

Signed, Plumblossom23"


I don't know whether this is a joke, or if I should be sleeping with one eye open. I'm kinda freaked the fuck out over this.

Guess who's teething?

I forgot how awful this part is. Not for me. I can handle her crying and being cranky. But I feel so bad for her. She's so miserable right now unless she has a nice, cold teething ring. Kenya, we need to buy 20 of them, so she's never without, okay? Cool, knew I could count on you.

Senri's heart stopped. It fucking stopped. They saved him, but that doesn't change the fact that for a moment, he fucking died. I can't do this anymore...I can't...I can't keep believing everything will be okay because it fucking won't be.

This isn't fucking fair. Why did this have to happen? Why Senri? He didn't fucking deserve this! I'm doing my best to stay calm. Kenya is panicked enough for the both of us. Still...it's hard.I know I shouldn't hold everything in, but I can't be upset when I'm trying to take care of Kenya...

I really wasn't expecting a party. But it was nice seeing everyone, and my gifts were really nice. This has been a year of ups and downs, but I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. Thank you all, for sticking with me.

Apparently, I was spotted with my "Secret Love Child" while I was out taking Tia to buy new clothes. One, she looks nothing like me, and two, so what? Even if she was my kid, it's none of your damn business. Just because I'm out with a baby somewhere doesn't mean there is a scandal behind it. And even if there was, it's no one's business. I'm not even that fucking famous, go bother some other asshole.