Zaizen Hikaru

I just went to talk to my professor today, to let him know I won't be going to America after all. He was pretty upset. He says I'm squandering my talents, and that I might as well drop the program if I'm wasting his time. Luckily, there are plenty of professors willing to take me in, I still feel like I'm letting a lot of people down. I just...I want to be with Senri and Kenya. I need to be with them. I'm still scared what long distance would do to my mental health. I'm just not ready to be away, and I know there isn't anything wrong with that...

Still feel like a failure though.