Tia-chan

[zenzaip]

I'm the only one of us that hasn't posted about Tia-chan...and I guess that's because I was a little embarrassed about my first reaction to her...But there's no real hiding it. I cried. I held her and I cried more than she did, and I knew in that instant that I had made the right choice by staying. She's absolutely perfect. It's a bit bittersweet, honestly, that we'll be taking care of her until Shouta can do so. I'm already so attached, and that'll only get worse with each passing day. But at the same time, I know I'll cherish her as if she was my own.

Comments

[o-samu-chan.livejournal.com]

That is nothing to be embarrassed about, Hikaru. I've known some very strong men who cried when they first saw their child. And you're one of the strongest men I know, so, it's not shameful. And whether you keep her one day or until she leaves for college, you'll get to say that you had her in your life. This is a wonderful thing.

You'll make a great father.

[zenzaip.livejournal.com]

But am I her father? Or just a caregiver? I guess that's the one thing I'm not clear on. I mean, Shouta probably wants her to think of him as her father...

And I'll never have kids of my own...

screened to Hikaru

[o-samu-chan.livejournal.com]

Hikaru, I think you know this better than anyone. Father is not the man who donated 1/2 your DNA. Father is the man that is there for you. That worries about you and takes care of you. The one that loves you, no matter what. Like me, you never really had that sort of father.

You love her. You care for her. You are her father until the day she personally tells you different. Even if Shouta comes to claim her back; in your heart, she's your little girl....or am I wrong?

[zenzaip.livejournal.com]

Screened to Osamu

No, you're right...I just hope I can do a good job. She's so beautiful, and I love holding her...

screened to Hikaru

[o-samu-chan.livejournal.com]

If that's how you feel, then you're already doing an amazing job. The rest of it will come when it comes. One step at a time. You have two men who will support you and you know where I am if you ever need me.

[zenzaip.livejournal.com]

screened to Osamu

Yeah, Senri and Kenya are pretty amazing when it comes to supporting and loving me. And you're always good for helping me level out.Thanks, Osamu.

screened to Hikaru

[o-samu-chan.livejournal.com]

Any time, Hikaru.