What the hell....

[zenzaip]

Did I enter some bizarro land without anyone telling me? I mean, I'm cool if Kenya is tired every now and then, but that hornball doesn't go a whole week without at least a hand job. He doesn't have the guts to cheat, and if he did, he would never see Tia again. But he's fucking hiding something and it's pissing me off. If something is happening at work, why won't you just tell us, Kenya? Why am I resorting to this fucking post because you seem to only say at most five words to me every day? Can't you see that you're fucking messing with Senri's already fragile head? If you don't want to have sex, what the fuck ever, but the least you could do is treat us like your boyfriends. I'm going to be staying in Senri's room until you can figure this the fuck out.

...And because I'm not in the mood to be a hypocrite, there is something I need to discuss with you and Senri. Nothing current, but a skeleton in my closet that I need to let out. Because I love my boyfriends and want them to know everything because I'm a decent person.

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[wingofkyushu]

Don't damn well assume sex is what I need. And don't damn well assume I've not tried and each time I ask him, every single fucking time I ask him he smiles and tells me nothing is wrong when I KNOW SOMETHING IS WRONG. SO DON'T YOU SIT THERE ALL HIGH AND FUCKING MIGHTY AND TELL ME HOW I'M THINKING AND FEELING BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE THE FIRST CLUE!

I don't love Kenya because he's good in bed, I love him because he's HIM and it's HIM I want and need. Here. With me. Not in my damn bed but at my side and me at his. BUT WHEN HE PUSHES ME AWAY HOW CAN I DO THAT? Come on, you tell me? You have all the answers. YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO WHEN HE WON'T TALK TO ME. Come on tell me! I'm all fucking ears because I've tried everything. I've tried talking to him, given him his space, played the happy boyfriend in the hopes he'd come to me... Sort of raging at him till I guilt him into telling me I've got NOTHING!

... So where does that leave us, huh? You want me to go and scream at Kenya till he tells me? I'll do it. I won't damn like it but since it's the only way to get anything out of him... I guess that's all I have left.

[auralhoney]

What I need you to do is calm down, Chitose. I'm glad to see that I misjudged you, and I apologize for that, but taking your anger out on me isn't going to solve anything. You have to either trust him to come to you when he feels the time is right, or force him to realize how the situation is effecting you - both of you.

Not in the same manner that this post was made, by the way. This post made me angry and feel like neither of you deserve his love.

Tell him the reasons you're angry and how it makes you feel, but be careful about guilting him. Kenya's got enough on his mind as well, and as much as I wish I knew what it was myself in order to better help you, he's yet to tell me either.

So just breathe, reassure him that you love him, and wait.